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DOESN’T THIS MAKE YOUR DAY!

Wednesday, February 3rd, 2010

ATT00001A Benedictine friend sends this little story to all of us:  
 
A nurse on the pediatric ward before listening to the little ones’ chests would plug the stethascope into their ears and let them listen to their own heart.. Their eyes would always light up with awe, but she never got a response equal to four year old David’s comment.

Gently she tucked the stethoscope into his ears and placed the disk over his heart. “Listen,” she said, “what do you suppose that is?”

He drew his eyebrows together in a puzzled line and looked up as if lost in the mystery of the strange tap, tap, tapping deep in his chest. Then his face broke out in a wondrous grin and he asked, “Is that Jesus knocking?”

Blessed are those who walk with one hand held by God and the other one held by a friend.

Praying before praying

Wednesday, February 3rd, 2010
Marc Chagall, The Praying Jew

Marc Chagall, The Praying Jew

Now that June is away for the week with her daughter and friends, I am at the lakehouse by myself until Saturday.  There are certain pleasures and blessings in being alone for a while, and even more of them when the solitude is extended.   Retired and in the house by myself, I have the privilege of planning my own days; and as a consequence I’m able to experiment somewhat with what goes on in my prayer life.   Having established a daily round of “fixed-time” Morning and Evening Prayer for many years now, I’m able to try some adjustments that may be for the better.

On most days my wife and I do our “fixed-time” praying at 8 in the morning and 5 in the evening.  Most of the time we simply drop whatever we’re doing, sit down, open up our prayerbooks, and, as we sometimes say, “go to it.”  What we really mean, of course, is that we want to “go to God.”   Our going usually takes about twenty minutes (a little more in the evening when we make our intercessions), and then we return to whatever else we need to do.   Daily prayer is thus something of an twice-daily interruption, two short openings in the day.

When I’m alone, however, I’m finding that my sense of “fixed-time” praying is under expansion so that more of each day is now opening up to “going to God.”  One addition to my habit of prayer is especially proving helpful, and I like to share how it is that I came upon it.

On a Friday two weeks ago a group from St. John Lutheran Church and I spent the evening at B’nai Israel synagogue in Fayetteville, Georgia, joining our Reformed Jewish brothers and sisters in their Sabbath worship.  Using their service book, Gates of Prayer, I mumbled my way through transliterations of Hebrew, listened to a good talk by the rabbi, and managed, at least a little bit, to acquaint myself with a spattering of Jewish prayer life.  As I opened Gates of Prayer, I found this sentence on page 3:

The pious ones of old used to wait a whole hour before praying, the better to concentrate their minds on God.

Reading that sentence took me back a bit!  Instead of dropping everything and jumping into prayer, the “pious ones” apparently spent considerable prayer time preparing for prayer.  Since reading that observation, I’ve tried to put its suggestion into practice by slightly changing how I begin evening and morning prayers now that I’m alone at the lakehouse. 

Here’s how it is working for me.  Instead of turning off the TV or coming in from some outside chore and entering prayer a few seconds later, I’m now deliberately settling into prayer with more preparatory silence.   First, I light the votive candle before icons of the Lord Jesus and His Mother.   Then I sit down and carefully preview what I’ll read in my prayer book and place my book marks accordingly so that I won’t need to fumble around later on.  I check my church calendar to make sure that I’m not overlooking something or someone special to the day.   Next I turn the day’s pages and find out what psalms and lessons are appointed for the day so as to alert myself as to reading surprises I may encounter.   Next I see what hymn is to be sung (or chose one), and if I don’t know the tune, I take the time to finger a nearby keyboard, learning the melody if that’s necessary.  All of this I do slowly.  I’m in no rush. 

I then look over my list of names of people who have asked for intercessions.  Now and then I’ll pencil in an additional name that comes to mind.  With my list updated, I then begin to review my own life for several minutes.  If I’m in Morning Prayer, I reflect upon what happened since yesterday’s Evening Prayer.  Did I do or not do anything that needs to be brought before God.  In the evening I review the whole day, examining personal motives, examining my conscious, noting especially where repentance is required and necessary.  I make a mental list of thanksgivings and praises I want to offer to God.   Once in a while I’ll look over my daily planner’s “to do” list to see if something was left undone that may need immediate attention during and after prayer.

What used to be about twenty minutes or so of “fixed-hour” praying is now turning out to take about twice as long.   Everything is slowly down.  I find myself more relaxed, centered, and settled.  It’s certainly not “a whole hour before praying,” but it is way of coming before God with more awareness and attention.  Perhaps it’s close to what the pious ones meant when they recommended praying before praying.

In Gates of Prayer, there’s this little story, also on page 3:

The REBBE [rabbi] of Tsanz was asked by a Chasid [Hasidic friend], “What does the Rabbi do before praying?”  “I pray,” was the reply, “that I may be able to pray properly.”

Two Fridays ago in their synagogue, God showed me how He can help me in my prayer life, and I learned a lot from my Jewish friends.  This week I’m beginning to realize that some time spent praying before praying helps my prayer life.

From my daybook, 12-16 January 2010

Saturday, January 16th, 2010
Days of unspeakable tragedy, sorrow, heartache. The first news of the earthquake in Haiti came, not from TV, but via email sent by Debbie Berquist from the Village of Hope in Port au Prince:

Jan 12, 2010 – 6:03pm WE ARE ALL FINE….shook up in more ways than one as you can well imagine. A few MINOR bruises. It is 5:40 PM as we type this and we are still having a few after shocks…the room shakes as I type. All the Haitian staff at Hope House are fine as well. My Haiti phones are out. Some of the team members (from PA) have been able to contact their families.

Since that message, many more, some almost hourly. Marie Major is all right as are all her children at Grace Orphanage; the kids at The Little Children of Jesus Orphanage are okay. A fragment of a phone call from Johnson tells us that Johnson and Andronic are alive; there is no word yet about Stevenson. We fearful that he may not be alive. My talk to the parish on Sunday bears fruit with money being collected, many prayers offered, and SJLC fully aware of the disaster. Received word today that Thrivent is matching funds given for relief: $1 for every $2 donated. In touch with Luckey, Pat, and Sherri; all of us are convinced that our scheduled February 1 trip to Port au Prince is on indefinite hold.

On Wednesday I met with Larry Schultz on the Global Missions Committee at the Manhattan Restaurant; Larry comes from good stock, open and honest. That evening the Eucharist was clean and simple, always Christ. Becky and Wayne came over for supper on Thursday. Met Hugh in the Barnesville post office and afterward he helped me get the plywood over to his place. We got the boat covered with a huge tarp.

Importantly, am learning to do the Jesus Prayer with regularity, each morning about 6. The darkness is important. 100 slow knots and prostations. Two chokti arrived as did the votive candle for the icon shelf. Learning how to include the saints in my prayers, especially the Blessed Virgin Mary. Clearly more Orthodox. Jim Forest’s book a big help, especially the collection of prayers.

Good movie: Under the Sun with subscripts. Tomorrow’s Gospel, the wedding at Cana. Dan Clendenin says it well:

At Cana in Galilee Jesus filled and fulfilled the ancient promises of Judaism. He filled the empty pots used for ritual purity with wine used for secular celebration. He didn’t merely announce a coming reign of God, or direct attention away from himself to some other. With the first of his “many miraculous signs” he demonstrated that somehow and in some unsurpassed manner he revealed the glory and character of God like no other. This friend of sinners, accused of being a glutton and drunkard, revealed a God of extravagant goodness and mercy.

Holy Baptism and The Blind Side

Tuesday, December 1st, 2009

Yesterday was the seventy-second anniversary of my baptism into the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ.   On November 20 (St. Andrew’s Day), my father and mother took me to a Lutheran church in Harrisburg, Pennsylvania, and there my father, a Lutheran pastor, baptized me “in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit” (back then, I suspect he said “Ghost” rather than “Spirit”).   And so God adopted me into his family, into the life of God, the Holy Trinity, and into the life of the church.   From that day on, as my self-consciousness began to grow, I slowly but steadily learned from my parents, my god-parents, my teachers (I went to a Lutheran parochial school), from my classmates, from my extended family, from my Sunday School teachers, and from nearly everyone I knew, that I was a Christian.   From infancy on, I had no other identity but that of Andy, a Christian.

All of my life that has been God’s Good News to me.   Even as God was forming me in my mother’s womb, God was getting ready to adopt me and to claim me as His own.  Created in His image, even though I was to be born within the tragedy of sin, God made sure that he was not going to lose me as his dear Andy.   Having reached down and into the tragedy of sin when he gave His son to us, God reached down to me, picked me up, took me to the Church, held me in my mother’s arms, and asked my pastor/father to baptize me.  From that day on, my first, middle, and last name has always been “Christian.”

blindside-3Sometime soon June and I plan to see The Blind Side, the story of Michael Oher, a homeless African-American youngster from a broken home, taken in by the Touhys, a well-to-do white family who help him fulfill his potential.   While I don’t know the details of the story, one of the trailers (if I’m remembering rightly) foregrounded this little conversation between Michael Oher and Leigh Anne Touhy, the woman who has brought Michael into her family’s home:

Leigh Anne Touhy:  Would you like to be a member of our family?
Michael:  I thought I already was.

That’s a conversation about grace.   When Leigh Anne brought Michael into her family and home, she gave Michael a brand new identity.   Once she had introduced Michael to the family, showed him his new bedroom, served him food at his new table, Michael was “hooked”; that is, he had no other way to think of him but as a “Touhy,” an “adopted” member of a wonderful family.   When Leigh Anne asks, “Would you to be in our family”? Michael is astonished at the question and can simply tell the truth, “I thought I already was.”   Yes, Michael already was!

That’s the way I grew up.  I always thought “I already was a Christian” ever since  God took me by bpatism into his family, the Church, the Body of Christ.   O yes, I had to learn how to live as a Christian, what sort of manners we Christians observe, how we love one another and other people, how we worship our adopting Father, Son, and Spirit, but all of that came “naturally” and spiritually as the Holy Spirit of God led me on my journey and cultivated my growing faith and trust in the mercy of God.   God the wonderful Obstetrician, gave me a second birth and delivered me into the Body of Christ, the Church.    God made sure I was born again.   God “hooked” me to the cross of Christ and, as St. Paul says, “into the death and resurrection of Christ” (Romans 6).  How wonderful always to know that.  Like any child adopted into a good family, I was delighted being a Christian.   I learned to pray, clean my room, read Scriptures, do my homework, learn to ride a bike, manage a newspaper route in the sixth grade, and let Jesus meet me Sunday after Sunday in Holy Communion.   I learned what forgiveness, grace, and mercy is all about.  What a life God has given me!  I wouldn’t have it any other way.  Thank you, mom and dad, for bringing me to the baptismal font.   Thank you, Church, for welcoming me into your blessed family.   And thank You,  Most Holy Trinity, for baptizing me me into your Name, the best name I ever got and will always have:  Christian.

Want to know more about the movie?   Read this perceptive review of The Blind Side.

New Book to Read: Soon to be Published

Sunday, November 29th, 2009

Teaching of the TwelveMy thanks to Ted Gossard for alerting me to the upcoming publication of Tony Jones’ The Teaching of the Twelve: Believing and Practicing the Primitive Christianity of the Ancient Didache Community.   Here’s one prepublication review by Chad Estes as noted on www.amazon.com

Before the New Testament was written, much less compiled, the early Christians had to figure out what their community of faith would look like. The Didache (DID-ah-kay) is a document that gives us a glimpse into those early years before creeds (Council of Nicaea- AD 325) were written and church hierarchies and orders were put into place (Constantine- 313) and most likely before any of the Apostle Paul’s letters were written.

This small document, which takes about 20 minutes to read, is broken into four parts. It is very possible that these four sections started as separate writings that were later put into one document to make it easier to share with a new follower of Jesus.
* Training in the Way of Life – a teaching on morals (very Jewish)
* The Rhythms of Community Life – including baptism, the Eucharist, fasting and praying
* Visitors Welcome – hospitality to those within and without the community
* The End is Nigh – signs towards the end of days

The document was not considered to be sacred and was not added to the cannon of the New Testament, but that does not make the contents unimportant. The writing has very little to do with theology- what to think about God; instead the focus is on how believers should live with each other.

In recent years the Didache has primarily been studied in academic circles. Author Tony Jones and Paraclete Press have partnered together to make it available again, and they have done with an interesting approach. Jones found a community of believers in Missouri that have been studying the Didache to understand the early Christians’ approach to community and implementing it into their lives today.

“The Teaching of the Twelve” starts with a history lesson of the manuscript, provides the actual text, and gives background to both the early Christians who followed these guidelines as well as the believers in Missouri that emulating them. This is followed by a chapter of commentary on each of the four sections. I found the writing to be encouraging and thought provoking and certainly worth discussing in communities of faith today.

Advent: A New Church Year, a New Beginning

Saturday, November 28th, 2009

He_Qi_56Look-toward-the-Heaven_smallI always have liked beginnings:  the beginning of a new semester, the beginning of a good book, the beginning of the day at dawn, and the beginning of a new adventure.  As a lover of beginnings, I’m especially happy that tomorrow is the First Sunday in Advent, the beginning of a new Church Year.  Our word Advent comes from the Latin verb advenire (to come to) and its related noun adventus (an arrival); Advent is a coming and arrival; a journey and getting there.  Advent signals the beginning of the Church year and begins on the Sunday closest to the Feast of St. Andrew the Apostle (November 30). This Sunday is the fourth Sunday before Christmas and falls between November 27 and December 3. The Advent season will thus have between 21 and 28 days, depending upon where this Sunday falls.

As the beginning of the new Church Year, Advent is a time of going forward to Christmas, the day upon which Christ’s nativity is celebrated and His first coming into this world.  During Advent we also focus on those centuries in which God’s people waited for the Messiah’s arrival.  As a consequence, there will many readings from the Old Testament in our liturgies that remind us how longingly our Jewish mothers and fathers looked forward to Jesus’ birth.  

But our Advent worship in the season before Christmas is not limited simply to Christ’s first coming.  An equal, if not more important, theme found in the Advent liturgies is the “re-appearing” of Christ when He comes again to judge the world.  Advent looks to both the past and future.  All the liturgies in this month-long Advent season look back over thousands of years to when the human race waited for its Redeemer and then to the future when this world will end and He will come then as our Judge.  Looking backward and forward, we’ll sing many Advent hymns about our Jewish ancestors’ hopes (“O Come, O Come, Emmanuel”), Isaish’s longings (“Comfort, Comfort Now My People”) and John the Baptist’s pointing to Jesus (“On Jordan’s Bank the Baptist’s Cry”). (more…)

St. Andrew’s Day

Friday, November 27th, 2009

st andrewNext Monday is my favorite saint’s day.  After all, it’s St. Andrew’s Day!  You shouldn’t get the idea, however, that I was intentionally named after him (although  in the long view of things, I like to think so).  The story goes that during the Great Depression (yes, I’m that old) my father was unable to render due payment to my mother’s obstetrician, Dr. Harvey Andrew Stein, for the services he provided during my delivery and birth into the God’s world.  With little or no money in hand, my father decided to honor (or pay!) the Dr. Stein, one of the finest Jewish obstetricians in Harrisburg, Pennsylvania, by naming me after Dr. Stein.   So on my birth certificate, the nurse penned in my full name as Harvey Andrew Stein.  For whatever reasons (and I’m glad somebody decided to do so), the first name never stuck, and nobody ever called me Harvey.  To this day, I don’t use it ever and have always managed, when necessary to do something legal, to sign my Hancock as “H. Andrew Harnack.” 

Be that as it may, I know I was baptized as Harvey Andrew Harnack on St. Andrew’s Day, and consequently (as I said, “in the long run”),  St. Andrew is and has been for 72 years my patron saint.   His icon now hangs in my study by the door so that I get to look at him many times during the day.  Although the icon itself displays St. Andrew as a rather dour-looking fellow (I am, of course, dour at times myself), I like to look at the icon appreciatively for at least two reasons.  First, it was to Andrew that Jesus said clearly, “You did not choose me; I chose you!”   And second, in Scripture it is St. Andrew who likes to introduce people to Jesus.  He is, after all, the disciple who introduced the first Pope to Jesus.   All of this reminds me that I am Andy only by the grace of God and that one of my jobs is to introduce as many people to Jesus as I possibly can.

So on this day, give thanks with me for my Holy Baptism into the life of the Most Holy Trinity and the Church created, sustained, and nourished by the grace of the Father through the gift of His son and the presence of the Holy Spirit.  And as often as possible, ask God to let me use my life and Praying Daily Blog as an introduction and invitation to resurrection with Jesus, our Lord.

A 24-hour Prayer Vigil at my Parish

Friday, November 20th, 2009

candles-1For several weeks now St. John Lutheran Church has been preparing her communicants for a 24-hour prayer vigil that begins late today, goes through the night, and extends until last tomorrow afternoon.  The vigil is designed to help all of us “pray through” our commitments to the parish as our c0ngregation prepares itself financially for 2010 and a new building effort that will increase the number of dearly needed educational classrooms.  Here’s the Prayer Vigil Guide:

PRAYER VIGIL GUIDE
 Saint John Lutheran Church, Griffin, Georgia
“Building on Blessings” Program – November 21, 2009

 This Prayer Vigil is a time for our community of faith to come before God to acknowledge that we are the body of Christ, and to ask for God’s guidance and presence tomorrow as we complete our commitments.  Even if you are alone in the sanctuary, this is a community time, for this prayer vigil is an act of our entire congregation.

As you spend time in prayer, be certain to thank God for all that God has done for you and for our congregation, and ask for God’s guidance in your own life and in the congregation’s life.   Here are some Bible texts for reflection and some possible subjects to pray about for your self and for the congregation as a whole . . . .

1.     Gratitude to God for His grace and blessings

        (Psalm 103:1-5) Bless the Lord, O my soul, and all that is within me, bless His Holy Name.  Bless the Lord, O my soul, and do not forget all His benefits-who forgives all your iniquity, who heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the Pit, who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy, who satisfies you with good as long as your live so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.

2.     Deeper trust in God

        (Proverbs 3:5-6)  Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not rely on your own insight.  In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make straight your paths. (more…)

Entering Centering Prayer

Wednesday, November 4th, 2009

Everyday I realize that I’m simply a beginner in the practice of contemplative prayer.  Each morning is a brand new start.  Each day has its own dawn, its own evening, its own midnight: all of which are beginnings.  I say this fully aware that I’ve been practicing Centering Prayer, a form of contemplative prayer, for nearly fifteen years.  Again, I repeat: I’m a beginning.

Nevertheless, there are some small things I’ve learned along the way that help me in all my beginnings.  I’ve found, for example, that it’s good to read what my elders others said about contemplative prayer, and for that reason I do a lot of reading in and around the Desert Elders, the abbas and ammas of the fourth century.    Here, for instance, is something that gave me pause several years ago ; it’s a saying by St. Diadochos of Photiki as quoted by Martin Laird’s Into the Silent Land: A Guide to the Christian Practice of Contemplation:

St_Diadochus_of_PhotikiWhen we have blocked all its outlets by means of the remembrance of God, the intellect requires of us imperatively some task which will satisfy its need for activity.  For the complete fulfillment of its purpose we should give it nothing but the prayer “Lord Jesus.”

When I enter the Prayer of Stillness, like St. Diadochos, I  find that my intellect does indeed require some task to satisfy its need for activity when entering centering prayer.   Unlike the saint, however,  I have discovered that it is very difficult for me to settle down with a very short word or two like his shortened Jesus Prayer.   My mind seems to require more settling time, often a half-minute or before I come to that place where I can enter the Simple Prayer of Quiet.  It’s for this reason that I have found it best over the years to slowly, and with some mindful praying, pointedly to ease myself into the silence of God’s presence.  To do this, I begin with prayer rope in hand and quietly murmur the Trisagion several times:  “Holy God, Holy and Mighty, Holy Immortal One, have mercy on us.”  I find this prayer one of direction, helping point me toward God.   Finding myself slowly bending toward centering, I then pray the Jesus Prayer a number of times; it’s a prayer I frequently use during the waiting times of my life, waiting for sleep, waiting in the grocery line, waiting whenever.  By this time, my body has nearly always found its attentive spine, and I am ready, with the Holy Spirit, to say, when helpful, the sacred word of my continued intention to be with God.

I realize that these prefatory prayers are indeed a small collection of petitions which, by God’s grace, will usually fall away as God centers me within his quiet presence.  For me nothing extraordinarily spectacular ususally happens; my quiet breathing finds itself with the Breath of God’s Spirit.  My Centering Lord, infinite circle though he is, draws me to him through concentric perforations, the spaces of which I need to quietly walk on my way to his healing Stillness.  When the Centering is as complete as God wishes, I then walk backwards, as it were, saying, as many do, the Our Father slowly, carefully.  And so begins my day.  Later on, after breakfast on most days, my wife and I sing and pray Morning Prayer together.

Reading Pennington about Merton

Tuesday, October 20th, 2009

For the past two days I’ve been reading Basil Pennington’s On Retreat with Thomas MertonIt’s a slight book, easily read in one day (even though I gave it two).  I became interested in it for several reasons: first, I knew Fr. Basil personally and have always been interested in his publications; and two, two days ago I found out that his book has a floorplan of Merton’s hermitage.  Having always been interested in the future possibility of a hermitage for myself, I was delight to discover a simple true-to-scale floor plan of Merton’s famous hermitage in this book.   As I read the book, however, I discovered something more important: how it is that I might improve this blog by writing more personally about my experiences as a Christian who wishes to live a more contemplative life.

In the past I’ve been largely satisfied to share my readings and then somehow comment on a paragraph or observation that someone else has made.  While my comments have been genuinely mine, I’ve been aware that it’s time for me, not only to continue the practice of quoting others with my comments, but also now to share my own life more openly, maybe without using someone else’s thought as a springboard to my own.   I do this unmediated writiing in a personal journal, and now it seems that with discernment I might also begin to open myself up to others as I struggle to become  more  contemplative in my daily life.  

On Retreat with Thomas Merton lets us read Pennington’s personal journal as he spends a week by himself living in Merton’s hermitage.  His week begins on a December 1, the First Sunday in Advent in an undisclosed year, sometime after Merton’s death; it ends a week later on December 8.   Alone, Pennington records his thinking and musings as the days pass.  He tells us how he fasted and what he ate, what he saw as he looked out the hermitage’s window, what happened to him when he took walks, what he remembers about Merton (whom he nearly always calls “Tom”), and how he opens himself up to the promptings of the Holy Spirit.  His journal entires are rhetorically unadorned, straight-forward, and preceptive.

Might I also be somewhat like Fr. Basil in my owning more public writing?